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Normal

My parents got to see my new tattoos this weekend which went better than I expected actually. My mom told me not to get anymore to which I said I can do whatever I want to which my mom laughed. It was later when I said I had to leave for therapy that my mom […]

Leave no trace

What Annie Dillard has to say about how to learn to write: By “ruining [the page], but asserting your freedom and power to act, acknowledging that you ruin everything you touch but touching it nevertheless, because acting is better than being here in mere opacity.” ******* I went to the Utah backcountry last week with […]

Dedication

A María David, bárbara del desierto, que mantuvo la fe cuando otros la perdían. I like this dedication. I like the name María David. For a long time and still and in many places (including the US) women’s names are qualified by men’s names to equate possession or belonging. I don’t like that. But I […]

Boomerang

Yesterday Denver was warm. I took off my jacket and my buff and my sweatshirt til I was down to my tshirt and jeans and still my face was flushed when we closed the shop at 5pm. A few hours later and a few thousand feet higher all the layers were back on. Snow dissolved […]

Sibling rivalry

I think this is the story. But it’s a story from when I was a kid so it could be wrong. But I think this is the story: We were on a raft in the Snake River in Wyoming. Mom, Dad, Bill, Nick and me. There was a raft guide and some nondescript strangers. The […]

Mexico

Every morning a group of boys probably between the ages of nine and thirteen showed up at the beach on a fancy golf cart with off-road wheels. Four or five of them crammed themselves in and held on to the back and held on to their surfboards when they left for the day. I’m pretty […]

Narcissa

Me: I think I got lovebombed. I didn’t know what that was until after but I guess it’s a thing that has a name.Therapist: Did the person you were dating have qualities of a narcissist?Me: What?! I don’t know! What are the qualities of a narcissist? Was I dating a narcissist?!Therapist: Lovebombing can be a […]

Speak Spanish to me

I’ve been listening to a lot of Spanish music lately. Mon La Ferte and Bomba Estereo both came out with new albums this year that are fun and funky and that’s where I started but then I kept going. Back to Julieta Vanegas, Juanes, Manu Chao, Calle 13 and Shakira–the Spanish-singing stars of the aughts. […]

Maps

Our house if full of quotes (candles and black yarn and bones) to honor the darkness and meditate on it. At first I thought this quote from Anne Carson was the darkest one– I wanted to find one law to cover all of living, I found fear. A list of my nightmares is the map […]