Luck

My mom texted me a few days ago telling me to buy a lottery ticket because the jackpot was up to a billion. Well, I forgot. But the next day I saw an NPR headline that no one had won so now it is 1.2 billion. Yesterday on a break from work I went to […]

Jars part 1

A long time ago, I lived in a far away place, called Kansas City. It was an old house, near 42nd and Wornall, that had been broken up into two apartments. There was an upstairs apartment and a downstairs apartment. I lived downstairs with Andrea. Two men lived in the upstairs apartment. Maybe their names […]

Trapped

Last night I was about to get into bed and I saw a small brown thing that looked like mulch or dirt on my covers at the bottom corner. I went to grab it and it jumped–a graceful arc off of my bed onto the floor. It made me laugh, the surprise of it. I […]

How was the drive

I went to a wedding in Kansas City last month. Lucky me, I snagged a room at this cute boutique hotel called No Vacancy where the rest of the wedding party was staying. I was rushing to get unpacked in my room when an old high school friend showed up in my doorway. We hugged […]

The moon: part 2

I’ve been looking at the sky a lot and recently it has been interesting to me that we only have one moon. Mars has two moons. Saturn has 82 moons. Like, what the hell that is so unfair! Why can’t we have several glowing orbs of different sizes hurtling at different speeds through our night […]

Normal

My parents got to see my new tattoos this weekend which went better than I expected actually. My mom told me not to get anymore to which I said I can do whatever I want to which my mom laughed. It was later when I said I had to leave for therapy that my mom […]

Boomerang

Yesterday Denver was warm. I took off my jacket and my buff and my sweatshirt til I was down to my tshirt and jeans and still my face was flushed when we closed the shop at 5pm. A few hours later and a few thousand feet higher all the layers were back on. Snow dissolved […]

Sibling rivalry

I think this is the story. But it’s a story from when I was a kid so it could be wrong. But I think this is the story: We were on a raft in the Snake River in Wyoming. Mom, Dad, Bill, Nick and me. There was a raft guide and some nondescript strangers. The […]

Narcissa

Me: I think I got lovebombed. I didn’t know what that was until after but I guess it’s a thing that has a name.Therapist: Did the person you were dating have qualities of a narcissist?Me: What?! I don’t know! What are the qualities of a narcissist? Was I dating a narcissist?!Therapist: Lovebombing can be a […]

Maps

Our house if full of quotes (candles and black yarn and bones) to honor the darkness and meditate on it. At first I thought this quote from Anne Carson was the darkest one– I wanted to find one law to cover all of living, I found fear. A list of my nightmares is the map […]