Normal

My parents got to see my new tattoos this weekend which went better than I expected actually. My mom told me not to get anymore to which I said I can do whatever I want to which my mom laughed. It was later when I said I had to leave for therapy that my mom […]

Boomerang

Yesterday Denver was warm. I took off my jacket and my buff and my sweatshirt til I was down to my tshirt and jeans and still my face was flushed when we closed the shop at 5pm. A few hours later and a few thousand feet higher all the layers were back on. Snow dissolved […]

Sibling rivalry

I think this is the story. But it’s a story from when I was a kid so it could be wrong. But I think this is the story: We were on a raft in the Snake River in Wyoming. Mom, Dad, Bill, Nick and me. There was a raft guide and some nondescript strangers. The […]

Narcissa

Me: I think I got lovebombed. I didn’t know what that was until after but I guess it’s a thing that has a name.Therapist: Did the person you were dating have qualities of a narcissist?Me: What?! I don’t know! What are the qualities of a narcissist? Was I dating a narcissist?!Therapist: Lovebombing can be a […]

Maps

Our house if full of quotes (candles and black yarn and bones) to honor the darkness and meditate on it. At first I thought this quote from Anne Carson was the darkest one– I wanted to find one law to cover all of living, I found fear. A list of my nightmares is the map […]

The moon

In the last hour of my drive from Denver to Kansas City I watched a waning gibbous moon rise in the east, yellow and huge just over my destination. A few days later, on the drive back to Denver: the reverse: the moon descended slowly through my windshield, unassuming in the still-lit blue sky. I […]

Romance

By Jean Sibelius is what I’ve been playing on the piano recently. My dad asked me why I liked it. Which was a good question I’d never thought about it before. I like the part where a fermata hovers boldly over a bar. Fermatas mean hold longer than normal–it’s at the player’s discretion. But this […]

Nice things

A few years ago I dropped my grandma’s watch and broke the crystal. I was sad about it then and it still disappoints me when I look at it. But hey! Maybe this can be fixed I thought the other day. I took it to the watch repair shop and the people said it might […]